Mom not well

I went to see my mom yesterday and she's not well. She got 10x the prescribed dose of haloperidol. For alzheimers patients, haloperidol is supposed to be given at 0.5 mg. They gave her 5 mg at least 4 times. She's in really bad shape. She can't walk or feed herself and her speech is slurred and nonsense.

There was apparently an issue of mistaken identity or lies. The nurses told my sister that "the guy who showed up yesterday was very pushy, pushing her wheelchair when she clearly didn't want to be moved". When I went, I simply sat with her and listened to her. It's troubling that either the staff lied about me, or some unknown person was there wheeling mom around.

If they're lying, I'm not going to visit her without another family member present. I know all too well when women start lying about a man, it becomes very dangerous for the man.

I'm having dinner with a friend tonight. I think I'll drive back home tomorrow morning.

One thing I learned on this trip: my sister advocated disinheriting me during the negotiations for the trust.

I also learned that she got a loan from dad, and now he says she thinks half of the loan should be forgiven as part of her inheritance. She already gets 40% while I get 20%. She's trying to increase her share by taking money before dad dies.

I thought she had grown out of her greedy and petty phase. She's over 50 and still scheming. She never really accepted me as her brother. She was livid when mom adopted me.

It's a bit depressing actually. I sometimes just want to leave everything and go live in the woods alone with my dog.

Another Elder Circling the Drain

My stepdad called me this evening. When I saw the call come in I knew it wasn't good news. He rarely calls me.

He told me my adopted mother (biologically paternal aunt) is dying. She's been in memory care for almost a year. Apparently there was a medication error that caused some kind of problem. That was 10 days ago, according to my sister. I knew she wasn't going to survive much longer, but I didn't expect it so soon.

So, I'm packing the car and the pup and we're driving straight through starting tomorrow morning. I need to see her before she dies. I didn't get a chance to say goodbye to my father when he died, and I still feel guilt over that 18 years later.

I'm honestly just numb right now. Me and my beloved were supposed to go to a friend's house to celebrate Diwali. After hearing about my mom, I didn't feel like going. My partner understood. We're supposed to celebrate when he returns, but it's getting late.

I have to finish the laundry so I have clothes for the trip.

I think it's going to be a rough couple of months.

Losing Elders Sucks

I recently learned of the 2020 death of a friend with whom I'd lost touch. She was an award winning writer and a kind person. She taught creative writing at a community college.

I always find it difficult to lose elders. Their wisdom is lost and all that remains are the memories. Even those fade away in about 20 years. No one alive knows anything about my great grandparents, except the biographical information in a genealogy file.

It's also sad to realize that a unique light has gone out, and the universe is a little darker for the loss.

I need to make time to take a trip back home to visit my remaining elders. My mom is still there, even though she sometimes doesn't remember having kids.

Strange Bedfellows - Islamic Terrorists and LGBT Activists

Why are leftists embracing islamic terrorists? I guess it shouldn't be too surprising considering their adoration of Che, but there was a rare moment of clarity during a pro-palestine rally in London, where a 'progress' flag was torn down by terrorists.

Terrorists tear down LGBT flag

Personally, I hate that flag. It takes a symbol of gay and lesbian liberation and desecrates it with a bunch of trans, nonbinary and asexual bullshit. I often have an urge to tear that ugly abomination down when I see it flying. But I have enough respect for the opinions of others and their property rights to refrain.

We used to have a neighbor who had a daughter. From what I gather, she was always a bit of a tomboy, but absolutely heterosexual. Sadly, she got caught up in the postmodernist gender nonsense, and now she claims to be nonbinary and insists on they/them pronouns.

This stupid girl is literally a heterosexual female, but she "decides" one day she's not a woman, and now flies that ugly ass flag on her parent's porch. To add insult to injury, she started identifying as 'queer'. She was extremely offended when I told her the word 'queer' has always been a slur against gay men, and it is not any kind of identity. She was probably more offended when I referred to her as 'young lady' when I told her my position on the word 'queer'.

Anyway. Strange bedfellows indeed. Hamas would show no amount of tolerance for any member of the 'LGBTQIA+' alphabet brigade. Yet, the alphabet brigade is falling over themselves to be allies with hamas. Very disturbing.

I declared divorce from the rest of the alphabet brigade years ago. There are the LG. Everything after that are a bunch of fair weather friends and pretenders. Even the L and the G don't interact much in the wild, but as homosexuals, we have to stick together.

Skeptic's Guide Silence on Hamas Attack on Israel is Deafening

 Since a bunch of barbarians swarmed across the border between Gaza and Israel, killing hundreds, beheading babies, raping women and taking hostages, the Skeptic's Guide to the Universe has been strangely silent, as has their resident woke windbag, Cara Santa Maria. It's strange that an organization, allegedly founded to combat irrational thinking and misinformation has NOTHING to say about islamic swine murdering Jews and the misinformation campaign the islamic hordes unleashed.

Particularly telling is this whole thing over the bombing of the hospital in Gaza. Leftist media were eager to take the word of the terrorists when they blamed Israel, and anyone who tried to push back was labeled "islamophobic". It turns out, the hospital, which is run by a Christian organization, was accidentally hit when a rocket launched by Hamas failed mid-flight and dropped into the parking lot of the hospital.

The islamic world erupted with protests, fueled by the hamas lies. What were the lies? First, they claim that over 500 people were killed in the blast. Secondly, they claim the hospital was destroyed. What were the facts? The hospital was NOT DESTROYED, and the casualties, while unfortunate, were probably less than 100. The fact is, the explosion happened in the parking lot outside the hospital. Those who died had taken refuge at the hospital, but it was full, so they had camped out in the courtyard by the parking lot.

Any loss of life is sad. I am very sad seeing the pictures of dead children being pulled from rubble. But let's not pretend that the islamists don't purposely operate out of highly populated areas to ensure any Israeli response would involve massive civilian casualties. IDF does NOT operate that way. There is no moral equivalence here.

I stand with Israel 100%. They have a right to defend themselves, and to seek to punish the barbarians who murdered, raped and took so many of their citizens hostage.

I have been horrified to see islamic hordes protesting in my city! Seriously. These swine held a mass rally in Seattle yesterday. Hundreds of people marching in solidarity with terrorists! Fucking hell!

I have always been a creature of the left, but as the left has lost their minds in the last 10-15 years, I've seen myself more as a centrist. The left's response to the evils perpetuated on 10/7 against innocent civilians has pushed me firmly into the right wing. I say pushed, but it really was a massive shove from the left wing loonies.

Build a border wall. Deport the islamists and other criminals. Build up our military so we can give Russia, China, Iran and anyone else a boot in the ass if they fuck with us or our allies. I'm Pro-Israel, Pro-America, and Pro putting a boot in the ass of anyone who wants to undermine the American way of life.

One final note: The SGU had taken a left turn into crazy town a few years ago. I noticed it when Cara Santa Maria was spouting trans ideology unchecked. I noticed it when Science Based Medicine jumped on the left wing loony train when it comes to trans ideology. I stopped listening to the SGU years ago. I had been a big fan, but the pandering and unskeptical stances they were taking just rubbed me the wrong way.

Needless Death

Watching the horrifying images coming from Israel today, I'm saddened by the loss of human life. All for rights to occupy a piece of land that is unremarkable except for the history on that spot.

Already somewhat depressed about the needless death in Israel, I decided to mow the lawn. I was pushing the lawnmower down a slight incline of high grass when I felt an unusual rattle from the lawnmower. I had run over some sort of small mammal only slightly bigger than a mouse. It's poor, mangled body came out from the blades a few moments later.

I stopped the lawnmower and felt so helpless. Here this little critter was crawling through the grass enjoying its life, and it gets sucked up and mutilated. I hope it didn't suffer.

Death stalks us all. I hope when my time comes I don't suffer. If there were a god, I think he'd ensure innocent woodland creatures had good lives and swift, painless deaths. Watching a gazelle being devoured by lions tells a very different story.

I know in the grand arch of history, one little mammal makes little difference. But I don't like killing anything without it being necessary to preserve my life.

I'll get over this minor thing. Right now, there are humans killing other humans. Should I care more about that?

Another Noble Lie? Fentanyl Second-Hand Smoke

During the pandemic, the public was given whiplash from the swift changes in masking guidelines. First, they told us masks do nothing to stop the spread of SARS-COV-2, then they swiftly came out with mask mandates and patterns to make masks at home. The first recommendation was a noble lie, told because they wanted to keep the public from causing an even greater mask shortage, and preserving the existing supply for front line workers. It was a lie that backfired massively when many people refused to wear masks, using the noble lie to mask their political motivations.

Recently, fentanyl has been used on public transit in many cities, especially cities that have refused to punish drug use under the guise of social justice. A report in Seattle said traces of fentanyl were found in the air and on surfaces in busses and trains. Public health experts were quick to claim that the levels were safe.

Why do I think this is a noble lie? Because it affirms 2 sacred cows among the leftists in places like Seattle and Portland: public transit and social justice.

Public transit has been touted as a solution to global warming, and they don't want transit users to go back to driving cars for fear of being exposed to fentanyl on public transit.

Social justice types don't want people to be fearful of helping someone in the throws of a fentanyl overdose, so they say the levels are safe.

I'm not saying they're lying. I'm saying I'd like to see the the studies replicated by truth-seeking scientists, not hand-picked partisans on-board with the social coercion agenda of the far left.

It's sad that public health officials have lost their credibility to the point where people just ignore their bleating. Science has been taken over by postmodernism. Rough times ahead.